Stands for all sorts of good things...
Pauls Boutique
Peanut Butter
....Palmer-Brown haha :\
Like a rollercoaster is the only way i can explain it - adrenalin fuelled thrill, nervous at first, getting more and more nervous and then you get up and over that hill and its over too soon, leaving you wanting to go and do it all over again. *sigh*
What else does it stand for?
Pariah Bitch?
Proper Bummer?
Please (dont) Bother?
Well I cant say anything to anyone without upsetting somone it seems. So I guess thats just great.
Am I really that insensitive? and Blind? That I cant see what comes out of my mouth is so upsetting that it warrants people not talking to me? Because apparently thats so. Think i might just shut up now, because when everything is lovely I always seem to be the one that ruins it, and it must be me because im the one being ignored. By more than one person (Y) Thats just...thats great.
Because everyone wants to be isolated at Christmas and New Year right? Yeh its really lovely. Cheers.
About Me
- SparklyDinerGirl
- Hello! My name is Aimée! I'm quite little, I have a few things that are important to me and I love them all: - My better half (Who shall just be known as C for the purposes of the blog) - My job - My family - My friends - My plans for the future I have random moments, never seem to have enough time, sometimes I appear to have TOO much time, I love to draw anything, I am completely illogical and often don't even make sense to myself! Welcome to my world :)
Monday 27 December 2010
Monday 11 October 2010
Sunday 10 October 2010
Friday 8 October 2010
Grow the Fuck up.
I can't make everyone happy, and Dad said its important to know that you CANT, always make everyone happy.
But its been been nearly two months now. If it carries on like this I may just have a nervous breakdown, shave all my hair off and start singing "oops I did it again" in the middle of the swansgate wearing a burmese python as a scarf.
Stop being like this.
It was going to be like this eventually anyway and how would it be any different if I got to know them before now or in the future?
Its not even different now. Im still here, youre still there and Im still not moving. I STILL dont see you and you STILL dont see me. You dont tell me how youre feeling, and when you do you make me feel like shit about it.
Well here it fucking is. I am not, and never WILL be sorry for wanting to get to know my Dad. And though I didnt not expect to be welcomed into their family, I HAVE been and I love them like they've been there all along.
I have never said that they are better than you, it is just different. I have never said that I am "swapping" as you put it, I want to get to know them and I enjoy being a part of their family as much as I have enjoyed and will continue to enjoy STILL being a part of our little family.
It is not exactly a secret that me and you have had our ups and downs, and we have had arguments before but you know what? This time I didnt do anything wrong. You may have a problem with my Dad, and vice versa - but I refuse to think the same way you do, I NEVER got the chance to know him before and so far it's been more than awesome.
I dont know what to say to you. Its fucking hurting, I took a huge risk that I knew could possibly hurt our relationship and I hoped to the moon and back that it wouldnt. But Im afraid that it has and Im not even seeing it.
I dont know what to say. But if I lose you... Im sorry but it isn't my fault.
I love you.
And I will never say this to you.
Please get over yourself.
But its been been nearly two months now. If it carries on like this I may just have a nervous breakdown, shave all my hair off and start singing "oops I did it again" in the middle of the swansgate wearing a burmese python as a scarf.
Stop being like this.
It was going to be like this eventually anyway and how would it be any different if I got to know them before now or in the future?
Its not even different now. Im still here, youre still there and Im still not moving. I STILL dont see you and you STILL dont see me. You dont tell me how youre feeling, and when you do you make me feel like shit about it.
Well here it fucking is. I am not, and never WILL be sorry for wanting to get to know my Dad. And though I didnt not expect to be welcomed into their family, I HAVE been and I love them like they've been there all along.
I have never said that they are better than you, it is just different. I have never said that I am "swapping" as you put it, I want to get to know them and I enjoy being a part of their family as much as I have enjoyed and will continue to enjoy STILL being a part of our little family.
It is not exactly a secret that me and you have had our ups and downs, and we have had arguments before but you know what? This time I didnt do anything wrong. You may have a problem with my Dad, and vice versa - but I refuse to think the same way you do, I NEVER got the chance to know him before and so far it's been more than awesome.
I dont know what to say to you. Its fucking hurting, I took a huge risk that I knew could possibly hurt our relationship and I hoped to the moon and back that it wouldnt. But Im afraid that it has and Im not even seeing it.
I dont know what to say. But if I lose you... Im sorry but it isn't my fault.
I love you.
And I will never say this to you.
Please get over yourself.
Sunday 19 September 2010
Do you...
Ever wooooonderrrr....
Erm. Have you ever felt like, everything is just crashing around you but youre the only one who can see and feel it and everybody else thinks youre overreacting.
Mum feels like she losing me as far as I can gather but I feel like I lost her. Alex never speaks to me any more. I feel like im almost betraying mum and Alex by seeing Dad Candy Josh Matt and Danny. But I think Ive been made to feel like that.
And my gramma and grampa dont want to meet me. :(
They think im not Dads
because mum said so.
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Oh life, What HAPPENED to you.
Erm. Have you ever felt like, everything is just crashing around you but youre the only one who can see and feel it and everybody else thinks youre overreacting.
Mum feels like she losing me as far as I can gather but I feel like I lost her. Alex never speaks to me any more. I feel like im almost betraying mum and Alex by seeing Dad Candy Josh Matt and Danny. But I think Ive been made to feel like that.
And my gramma and grampa dont want to meet me. :(
They think im not Dads
because mum said so.
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Oh life, What HAPPENED to you.
Tuesday 14 September 2010
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FOR FUCKS SAKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!??!!?!
What is with my FAMILY??
Liars, Cheats, Dysfunction, Psychos and its turning me into a mad person and I cant do this anymore its fucking killing me!!!!
I get told im fat, I get treated like im ten, wrapped in cotton wool so nothing will ever happen to me WELL like in the awesome film FINDING NEMO if nothing happens to me NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN TO ME.
LET ME BE ME!!!! FOR FUCKS SAKE STOP ITTT!!!
LEAVE ME ALOOOOONE!!!!
I hate myself.
What is with my FAMILY??
Liars, Cheats, Dysfunction, Psychos and its turning me into a mad person and I cant do this anymore its fucking killing me!!!!
I get told im fat, I get treated like im ten, wrapped in cotton wool so nothing will ever happen to me WELL like in the awesome film FINDING NEMO if nothing happens to me NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN TO ME.
LET ME BE ME!!!! FOR FUCKS SAKE STOP ITTT!!!
LEAVE ME ALOOOOONE!!!!
I hate myself.
Wednesday 8 September 2010
Waiting...
Waiting on the world to change.
Well it has, and I made it change.
For the better might I add.
Sooo I havent posted in a few weeks. Basically....
Im still jobless.
Still Carless.
Still flatless - but living with Nannyy :)
Ive been to the doctors and gained weight and my cholesterol is too high.
I have more blood tests tomorrow.
Oh yes and Ive gained four brothers a stepmum and my Dads back :)
YES.
Its TRUE. :D
And how chuffed are you Aimee you say?
Very chuffed I say.
More than chuffed. :D
Hes lovely!!!!!!! Theyre ALL lovely!!!
So Mum isnt happy. I dont know what I can do to make her happy, shes crying all over the Gaff but lets be perfectly honest here and take a step back.
Yes, Robin was a "dad" to me for nearly eight years but he isnt MY Dad is he? People yo yo in and out of my life for years and years and I never even got the CHANCE to know my real Dad and now I do and Im happy, theyre really happy and mums the only one not happy about it.
It was GOING to happen no matter what, Im nearly twenty for fucks sake. No I dont want to live in Essex, I want to get a life, get a home of my own, a car, a job and I want to stick it here - Ive heard what Dad was like after she left with me and I do not intend on leaving.
Im standing my ground - I always have, its me. I wont go back on my word to my Daddy, and leave again. I cannot do that to him, or Candy, or Josh or Matt and Danny.
And I wont do it to myself.
But yeah. The last week has been Epic. :)
xxxxxxxx Much to report.
Will leave it for a bit.
Ceeb with html.
Well it has, and I made it change.
For the better might I add.
Sooo I havent posted in a few weeks. Basically....
Im still jobless.
Still Carless.
Still flatless - but living with Nannyy :)
Ive been to the doctors and gained weight and my cholesterol is too high.
I have more blood tests tomorrow.
Oh yes and Ive gained four brothers a stepmum and my Dads back :)
YES.
Its TRUE. :D
And how chuffed are you Aimee you say?
Very chuffed I say.
More than chuffed. :D
Hes lovely!!!!!!! Theyre ALL lovely!!!
So Mum isnt happy. I dont know what I can do to make her happy, shes crying all over the Gaff but lets be perfectly honest here and take a step back.
Yes, Robin was a "dad" to me for nearly eight years but he isnt MY Dad is he? People yo yo in and out of my life for years and years and I never even got the CHANCE to know my real Dad and now I do and Im happy, theyre really happy and mums the only one not happy about it.
It was GOING to happen no matter what, Im nearly twenty for fucks sake. No I dont want to live in Essex, I want to get a life, get a home of my own, a car, a job and I want to stick it here - Ive heard what Dad was like after she left with me and I do not intend on leaving.
Im standing my ground - I always have, its me. I wont go back on my word to my Daddy, and leave again. I cannot do that to him, or Candy, or Josh or Matt and Danny.
And I wont do it to myself.
But yeah. The last week has been Epic. :)
xxxxxxxx Much to report.
Will leave it for a bit.
Ceeb with html.
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