wont save us.
BASICALLY.
I got drunk last night.
By myself.
As you can see from the past two videos.
Absolutely tragic, I admitted a LOT of feelings. For Rich. And boy2.
Well, Boy2 is now completely out of the picture - Fuck that! What a FOOL I was to get involved with him. Moron.
Rich however...
Well.
I dont know WHAT to think.
He broke my heart over and over, and I STILL havent given up on him. Just because I shoved those feelings, bottled up, to the back of my mind doesnt mean that theyre gone.
And apparently, he can bring them all back, uncorked, flooding the front of my mind.
Oh. Dear.
Out of the frying pan, into the fucking volcano.
Nothings gonna happen whilst he still has a girlfriend. No. I cant do that, as much as I want her to suffer (BITCH) Im not reeeeeally that type of person now am I?
am I?
no.
Im not.
I swear if we meet up and hes still with her he can have a hug and nothing else.
No.
Im not a carpet, im not his sex slave and I shant be walked all over again.
Got a giant marker today. And a copy of titanic for three quid. FACKIN BARGAIN.
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- Hello! My name is Aimée! I'm quite little, I have a few things that are important to me and I love them all: - My better half (Who shall just be known as C for the purposes of the blog) - My job - My family - My friends - My plans for the future I have random moments, never seem to have enough time, sometimes I appear to have TOO much time, I love to draw anything, I am completely illogical and often don't even make sense to myself! Welcome to my world :)
Tuesday, 10 August 2010
Monday, 9 August 2010
Well...
if you didnt WANT me to cook the stupid fucking sausage and mash, you should have told me!! Instead of asking me to do it, then getting shitty with me and then interfering when I clearly had it sorted!!!!!!!!!!!
Jeeeeeeeeesus.
Fuuuucking.
Chrriiiiiist.
Cant wait to come back to Devon sometimes.
Oh memories. Theyre so fun to think about!!! Lol. Talking to Boy2. I never really know what to say to him. What I WANT to say to him I CANT. So I must seem like a right antisocial twat sometimes.
He liked the thing though. Was good apparently :)
another success in putting a smile on my face Boy2 well done.
xxx
Jeeeeeeeeesus.
Fuuuucking.
Chrriiiiiist.
Cant wait to come back to Devon sometimes.
Oh memories. Theyre so fun to think about!!! Lol. Talking to Boy2. I never really know what to say to him. What I WANT to say to him I CANT. So I must seem like a right antisocial twat sometimes.
He liked the thing though. Was good apparently :)
another success in putting a smile on my face Boy2 well done.
xxx
Sunday, 8 August 2010
Scream my lungs out..
and try to get to you.
What a FARKIN tune.
So this video below is for Mr S Hall himself. Said I would.
So I did. >.<
And heres todays blog :)
What a FARKIN tune.
So this video below is for Mr S Hall himself. Said I would.
So I did. >.<
And heres todays blog :)
Saturday, 7 August 2010
OOOHHHHHHH
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?!
RANT TIME.
I need to stop getting myself into these situations. I really do. Stop going on her profile and checking.
Do I WANT to see his lying cheating conniving SMUG ASSHOLE FACE?
yes. Thats why I do it. SHOULD I? No. Definitely not.
There was a moment, one shining fucking moment when that boy made me complete. Something nobody else had done, he took the pieces of me and then stuck them back together and i was HAPPY.
Then slowly but surely, he picked and picked and picked until all the pieces were so....fragile that when the last blow came, I shattered. And yet even though HE was at fault, and I thought I was going insane and I thought it was my fault I STILL feel...pain. Actual physical pain when I think about him or anything we did together or just...anything...:'(
That boy has literally broken my heart.
Then. Boy 2 comes along. Yes Boy 2 will do.
Oh goddd where to start. Well THAT moved fast.
Anddd im hung up on someone who really just doesnt want to know. Hes completely intoxicating, frustrating, and SO complicated. Im confused as hell with him, he creeps into my mind and the thought of him makes me smile, the thought of him smiling makes me smile even more and the thought of us...well...you know...I wont even go INTO that.
Only person I ever had feelings like these for were Asshole boy.
And I only got over those feelings a couple of months ago...when i met Boy 2.
Shit.
He doesnt know just how much I care and how much it hurts all at the same time. If my head was a cake, we'd all have food poisoning.
Jeez.ARGH. What do i do? Nothing. Theres nothing I CAN do. Whatever was there, i dont know if there were really any feelings on his part, its gone isnt it? He...He will never feel the same way.
And it blows.
RANT TIME.
I need to stop getting myself into these situations. I really do. Stop going on her profile and checking.
Do I WANT to see his lying cheating conniving SMUG ASSHOLE FACE?
yes. Thats why I do it. SHOULD I? No. Definitely not.
There was a moment, one shining fucking moment when that boy made me complete. Something nobody else had done, he took the pieces of me and then stuck them back together and i was HAPPY.
Then slowly but surely, he picked and picked and picked until all the pieces were so....fragile that when the last blow came, I shattered. And yet even though HE was at fault, and I thought I was going insane and I thought it was my fault I STILL feel...pain. Actual physical pain when I think about him or anything we did together or just...anything...:'(
That boy has literally broken my heart.
Then. Boy 2 comes along. Yes Boy 2 will do.
Oh goddd where to start. Well THAT moved fast.
Anddd im hung up on someone who really just doesnt want to know. Hes completely intoxicating, frustrating, and SO complicated. Im confused as hell with him, he creeps into my mind and the thought of him makes me smile, the thought of him smiling makes me smile even more and the thought of us...well...you know...I wont even go INTO that.
Only person I ever had feelings like these for were Asshole boy.
And I only got over those feelings a couple of months ago...when i met Boy 2.
Shit.
He doesnt know just how much I care and how much it hurts all at the same time. If my head was a cake, we'd all have food poisoning.
Jeez.ARGH. What do i do? Nothing. Theres nothing I CAN do. Whatever was there, i dont know if there were really any feelings on his part, its gone isnt it? He...He will never feel the same way.
And it blows.
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