GET IT OUT

fucks sake fucks sake

everythings in my head
im panicking

im not gonna be able to go to bicton
no funding
no ema
parents earn too much
they cant help me though
theyre falling apart
mum hasnt spoken to phil in a week
she has no interest
she speaks to me like im a moron
im going to lose him again
he sleeps with someone else when i tell him nothing and dumps me when he knows everything
nobody wants to hire me
Alex is hacking me off and its not his fault
i hate being hugged or being within a metre of anyone in my family
my grandad is not the angel i thought he was
my diabetes is fucked
im going blind
myheart will fail
im going to lose my boyfriend
i love him
i love him too much to lose him
he hates me
im a nuisance
im being played
i dont know what to think
what does he tell people?!
they all think im a freak
i dont know what to do
and the talking ends here
and
im so scared
i had a future planned out
and now i cant do it
i cant live with her its too much hell hate me again
he hates me
what do i do he really hates me for fucks sake
im a mess
i want codeine
i want codeine so badly
and its upstairs
three would do just three
id be all droopy and fine
i wouldnt even be bothered
just sleep
i cant sleep
scampy doesnt help
nothing does
bollocks
im screwed
no future
no career
family sucks
im screwed and its not my fault.
i must have been so bad in a previous life.
fuckit.