know your name.
I have discovered Love in the unlikliest of places and for things I never thought Id love...
Love Life - Club in Wellingborough, such a laugh
Love in Family - Jade I dont know why weve seen each other only a few times over the last nineteen years but Im glad its changed. LoveYaCuz.IDo
Love the Swedish House Mafia - :D
Love Lava - Club in Northampton OMGGGGGZ Epic Win to infinity and beyond.
Love in a Jagerbomb - no more needed.
Love friendly people!!
Phwoar. Lottalovin.
Also on the menu:
Amy is back soon so i can ring her - served with a smile
MY Amy is back from cornwall and we had a lovely chat earlier - served with generous portions of grinning
Rich got his face bashed by some boy in a fight yadda yadda - served with worry and regret, best accompaniment is cheap vodka.
....and for dessert - Aching. All over from a bottomless jug of dancing.
About Me
- SparklyDinerGirl
- Hello! My name is Aimée! I'm quite little, I have a few things that are important to me and I love them all: - My better half (Who shall just be known as C for the purposes of the blog) - My job - My family - My friends - My plans for the future I have random moments, never seem to have enough time, sometimes I appear to have TOO much time, I love to draw anything, I am completely illogical and often don't even make sense to myself! Welcome to my world :)
Sunday 22 August 2010
Monday 16 August 2010
the general update
ok so it took a while. But ive recorded some days... aaaand not posted so here they are.
Things are just getting bad.
Im actually crying haha
LOSERKID moment.
actually after careful thought im just going to post this and the most recent one and WRITE what happened inbetween.
Im still texting the ex. Ouch. It hurts. He makes me feel funny.
I went clubbing and had an amazing time with my cousin, ive been to her friends house and had chinese, ive missed my gorgeous husband George :( a lot. Ive had blood tests. they were shit. i got a call from the doctors telling me theres something up. I have been thrown up on, thrown up, been concussed by a toilet door being wielded by my cousin...wounded myself in front of sam on webcam and ive missed my friends.
Ohhh not much really.
Things are just getting bad.
Im actually crying haha
LOSERKID moment.
actually after careful thought im just going to post this and the most recent one and WRITE what happened inbetween.
Im still texting the ex. Ouch. It hurts. He makes me feel funny.
I went clubbing and had an amazing time with my cousin, ive been to her friends house and had chinese, ive missed my gorgeous husband George :( a lot. Ive had blood tests. they were shit. i got a call from the doctors telling me theres something up. I have been thrown up on, thrown up, been concussed by a toilet door being wielded by my cousin...wounded myself in front of sam on webcam and ive missed my friends.
Ohhh not much really.
Tuesday 10 August 2010
And WHEN I went downstairs...
HE WAS WATCHING PORN!!
LOL.
Had a good night :) Jade Abbie Tina and Uncle D came over :) sat in the garden chattin for ages, Jade picked my outfit for Friday night! :D LBD and Black platforms. NICE.
Rich has been texting me today :) I like talking to him...still talks about sex all the time though. I made it perfectly clear nothing is going to happen whilst hes still with his girlfriend and to be honest Im not entirely sure what to think.
I do love him. A lot. Im not sure im entirely over him. Or over him at all. I just blocked him out, all the feelings, the memories and I try so hard not to think about him. I dont want to get hurt again.
It will finish me if it all happens over again.
But Im a different person now. I can see him and not expect anything ever. Im not a pushover any more.
I want to see...and I dont want to see.
Oh goddd I want him so bad lol.
That is NOT a good thing.
Always wanting what I cant/shouldnt have...
*sigh*
What happened to the simple life?
no html CBA.
LOL.
Had a good night :) Jade Abbie Tina and Uncle D came over :) sat in the garden chattin for ages, Jade picked my outfit for Friday night! :D LBD and Black platforms. NICE.
Rich has been texting me today :) I like talking to him...still talks about sex all the time though. I made it perfectly clear nothing is going to happen whilst hes still with his girlfriend and to be honest Im not entirely sure what to think.
I do love him. A lot. Im not sure im entirely over him. Or over him at all. I just blocked him out, all the feelings, the memories and I try so hard not to think about him. I dont want to get hurt again.
It will finish me if it all happens over again.
But Im a different person now. I can see him and not expect anything ever. Im not a pushover any more.
I want to see...and I dont want to see.
Oh goddd I want him so bad lol.
That is NOT a good thing.
Always wanting what I cant/shouldnt have...
*sigh*
What happened to the simple life?
no html CBA.
Three words
wont save us.
BASICALLY.
I got drunk last night.
By myself.
As you can see from the past two videos.
Absolutely tragic, I admitted a LOT of feelings. For Rich. And boy2.
Well, Boy2 is now completely out of the picture - Fuck that! What a FOOL I was to get involved with him. Moron.
Rich however...
Well.
I dont know WHAT to think.
He broke my heart over and over, and I STILL havent given up on him. Just because I shoved those feelings, bottled up, to the back of my mind doesnt mean that theyre gone.
And apparently, he can bring them all back, uncorked, flooding the front of my mind.
Oh. Dear.
Out of the frying pan, into the fucking volcano.
Nothings gonna happen whilst he still has a girlfriend. No. I cant do that, as much as I want her to suffer (BITCH) Im not reeeeeally that type of person now am I?
am I?
no.
Im not.
I swear if we meet up and hes still with her he can have a hug and nothing else.
No.
Im not a carpet, im not his sex slave and I shant be walked all over again.
Got a giant marker today. And a copy of titanic for three quid. FACKIN BARGAIN.
BASICALLY.
I got drunk last night.
By myself.
As you can see from the past two videos.
Absolutely tragic, I admitted a LOT of feelings. For Rich. And boy2.
Well, Boy2 is now completely out of the picture - Fuck that! What a FOOL I was to get involved with him. Moron.
Rich however...
Well.
I dont know WHAT to think.
He broke my heart over and over, and I STILL havent given up on him. Just because I shoved those feelings, bottled up, to the back of my mind doesnt mean that theyre gone.
And apparently, he can bring them all back, uncorked, flooding the front of my mind.
Oh. Dear.
Out of the frying pan, into the fucking volcano.
Nothings gonna happen whilst he still has a girlfriend. No. I cant do that, as much as I want her to suffer (BITCH) Im not reeeeeally that type of person now am I?
am I?
no.
Im not.
I swear if we meet up and hes still with her he can have a hug and nothing else.
No.
Im not a carpet, im not his sex slave and I shant be walked all over again.
Got a giant marker today. And a copy of titanic for three quid. FACKIN BARGAIN.
Monday 9 August 2010
Well...
if you didnt WANT me to cook the stupid fucking sausage and mash, you should have told me!! Instead of asking me to do it, then getting shitty with me and then interfering when I clearly had it sorted!!!!!!!!!!!
Jeeeeeeeeesus.
Fuuuucking.
Chrriiiiiist.
Cant wait to come back to Devon sometimes.
Oh memories. Theyre so fun to think about!!! Lol. Talking to Boy2. I never really know what to say to him. What I WANT to say to him I CANT. So I must seem like a right antisocial twat sometimes.
He liked the thing though. Was good apparently :)
another success in putting a smile on my face Boy2 well done.
xxx
Jeeeeeeeeesus.
Fuuuucking.
Chrriiiiiist.
Cant wait to come back to Devon sometimes.
Oh memories. Theyre so fun to think about!!! Lol. Talking to Boy2. I never really know what to say to him. What I WANT to say to him I CANT. So I must seem like a right antisocial twat sometimes.
He liked the thing though. Was good apparently :)
another success in putting a smile on my face Boy2 well done.
xxx
Sunday 8 August 2010
Scream my lungs out..
and try to get to you.
What a FARKIN tune.
So this video below is for Mr S Hall himself. Said I would.
So I did. >.<
And heres todays blog :)
What a FARKIN tune.
So this video below is for Mr S Hall himself. Said I would.
So I did. >.<
And heres todays blog :)
Saturday 7 August 2010
OOOHHHHHHH
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?!
RANT TIME.
I need to stop getting myself into these situations. I really do. Stop going on her profile and checking.
Do I WANT to see his lying cheating conniving SMUG ASSHOLE FACE?
yes. Thats why I do it. SHOULD I? No. Definitely not.
There was a moment, one shining fucking moment when that boy made me complete. Something nobody else had done, he took the pieces of me and then stuck them back together and i was HAPPY.
Then slowly but surely, he picked and picked and picked until all the pieces were so....fragile that when the last blow came, I shattered. And yet even though HE was at fault, and I thought I was going insane and I thought it was my fault I STILL feel...pain. Actual physical pain when I think about him or anything we did together or just...anything...:'(
That boy has literally broken my heart.
Then. Boy 2 comes along. Yes Boy 2 will do.
Oh goddd where to start. Well THAT moved fast.
Anddd im hung up on someone who really just doesnt want to know. Hes completely intoxicating, frustrating, and SO complicated. Im confused as hell with him, he creeps into my mind and the thought of him makes me smile, the thought of him smiling makes me smile even more and the thought of us...well...you know...I wont even go INTO that.
Only person I ever had feelings like these for were Asshole boy.
And I only got over those feelings a couple of months ago...when i met Boy 2.
Shit.
He doesnt know just how much I care and how much it hurts all at the same time. If my head was a cake, we'd all have food poisoning.
Jeez.ARGH. What do i do? Nothing. Theres nothing I CAN do. Whatever was there, i dont know if there were really any feelings on his part, its gone isnt it? He...He will never feel the same way.
And it blows.
RANT TIME.
I need to stop getting myself into these situations. I really do. Stop going on her profile and checking.
Do I WANT to see his lying cheating conniving SMUG ASSHOLE FACE?
yes. Thats why I do it. SHOULD I? No. Definitely not.
There was a moment, one shining fucking moment when that boy made me complete. Something nobody else had done, he took the pieces of me and then stuck them back together and i was HAPPY.
Then slowly but surely, he picked and picked and picked until all the pieces were so....fragile that when the last blow came, I shattered. And yet even though HE was at fault, and I thought I was going insane and I thought it was my fault I STILL feel...pain. Actual physical pain when I think about him or anything we did together or just...anything...:'(
That boy has literally broken my heart.
Then. Boy 2 comes along. Yes Boy 2 will do.
Oh goddd where to start. Well THAT moved fast.
Anddd im hung up on someone who really just doesnt want to know. Hes completely intoxicating, frustrating, and SO complicated. Im confused as hell with him, he creeps into my mind and the thought of him makes me smile, the thought of him smiling makes me smile even more and the thought of us...well...you know...I wont even go INTO that.
Only person I ever had feelings like these for were Asshole boy.
And I only got over those feelings a couple of months ago...when i met Boy 2.
Shit.
He doesnt know just how much I care and how much it hurts all at the same time. If my head was a cake, we'd all have food poisoning.
Jeez.ARGH. What do i do? Nothing. Theres nothing I CAN do. Whatever was there, i dont know if there were really any feelings on his part, its gone isnt it? He...He will never feel the same way.
And it blows.
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